Right now, things are pretty tough with the whole baby thing. If I let myself think about it for more than a fleeting thought, I get pretty emotional. I want to be strong, tough, and resilient to what gets me down.
And I try.
I try really hard.
But it's difficult to not get down when you want something so badly, and every month you're shown that you will not have it. Sometimes I wonder if for some reason I don't deserve it or am not worthy of being a mother. Sometimes I wonder if this is some kind of penance I have to do because I didn't go to church enough, or was too rude or sassy to someone, or wasn't patient when I should have been.
I have to keep in mind that he has a plan for me and Clint.
I just wish I could have a little peek at it.
She wasn't so Scary.
1 week ago
3 comments:
you are very deserving of being a mother! have you thought about going to the chiropractor, sounds crazy I know but have had a couple friends struggle with fertility and then go to the chiro and after a couple moths they were able to get pregnant.
Thanks Kathy! I made my appointment with the chiropractor today!
There is not a doubt in my mind that you deserve to be a mommy, and will be the best one ever! I know it is very hard to understand why it's not happening right now but it made me think of one of my favorite verses...Jeremiah 29:11. I try really hard to remember that verse when I feel down and don't understand the path that God has led me down. You are amazing!
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