Welcome to the REAL Rollercoaster Ride

Things have been really hectic lately so here's what we've been up to:

March 6
Our second IUI after Follistim failed.  Hello period, you can suck it!  Since I made 8 eggs that likely released, my tubes are probably jacked.  So much for that laproscopy that I had over my 30th birthday.

March 8
Clint and I met with the doctor to discuss our IVF options.  The doctor thinks we'll be great candidates because I have good eggs and he has gold star business.  As always, the doctor was incredibly entertaining and we even consulted the Magic 8 Ball to see what we should do.

The doctor said we could be set for a May IVF.  I never thought we'd have to go through IVF.  Before we were at this point, I always thought IVF would almost guarantee a baby.  That's not the case.  And with the way our luck is going, I'm not too sure on that 62% rate our doctor has.  If it were anyone else, I'd say they are definitely going to get pregnant.  Us?  Well...we'll just have to see.

The doctor said he wouldn't let us decide on IVF that day but he gave me a prescription for the birth control I would need to take prior to IVF.  Ha!  Birth control!  Never thought I'd be on that again.  I guess it's to quiet my ovaries.  Just active pills.  So hopefully I'll only have one more period for a while!

Clint and I would have said yes right then and there had the doctor allowed it.  We've already discussed that we have to at least try it.  If that doesn't work then we will know for sure what our path will be.

We filled the prescription on the way out.

March 11
I called the nurse in charge of IVF scheduling and set up a timeline for our procedure.  She surprised me by asking if I wanted to do it in April.  It scared me so I just said, "May will be fine."

Clint and I have decided to keep our IVF journey more to ourselves than the rest of our procedures.  Of course we can't keep it a total secret!  Who would help us keep our sanity?  We told our parents and siblings, close friends, and close coworkers.  I don't want to keep it a phase 10 super top secret, but I also don't want to have everyone and their brother ask me how it's going every two minutes. 

March 28
At first, it seemed like 2 months wasn't enough to get all our finances and selves together before we start this process.  I mean, who has an extra $13,000 just laying around?  We were able to figure out a way to finance our IVF, but it was SUPER stressful researching and deciding on how we were going to do it.  Right now, it seems like SO MUCH money.  I'm sure we won't even bat an eye at it if we do have a baby.

Sometimes I have low moments where I get very jealous about couples who didn't have issues concieving.  How is it fair that we have had to spend so much?  It also makes me think about we are going to afford a baby and paying for our IVF.

I told my mom that if we were smart we'd wait a few months, save up some more money, and have better "timing" for getting pregnant where I wouldn't have to miss school.  I also said I feel like this is the most financially irresponsible thing we've done.  Things are going to be tight until we get this IVF paid off.  I'm talking like trying to fit into my high school jeans tight!

But then I tell myself, we've been waiting 3 years to be pregnant.  Why the hell would I wait any longer?

April 2
Our financing is in!  The doctor's office has received our paperwork and I called today to set up the first appointment of the IVF process.  I go to the doctor on the 12th.  And right now it seems soooo far away!

I'm anxious to see what kinds of shots I'll have to give myself.  I hope it is the same thing or similar to the Follistim I was taking before.  I can give myself those injections!  I'm not getting much consistant information on the internet (imagine that!) about the meds, just that there are a lot.